The Beginning of the End

these next two series of poems were written about a man i loved. the only thing ill reveal about his identity is that he was from india. other than that, he will remain nameless. we had trouble in our relationship, so we broke up. he will remain nameless. we fell in love quickly, much too quickly. he seemed like such a wonderful man- so kind, gentle and loving. the words he spoke to me were none that i ever heard before. his writing was beyond beautiful, such a flowery type of language. imagine the hearing the beauty of poetry in conversation. i had the privilege of listening to these words each time we met. i can only compare his way of expression to shakespeare.

then as time went on, the situation changed for the worse. things started going wrong just as quickly as we fell in love. he started spending less and less time with me. i felt so hurt and abandoned by his insensitivity. over and over i tried to work it out, but he had no interest in resolving our problem. he lost interest in me. i knew something was seriously wrong, but he wouldn't explain or admit it to me. the more this went on, the more angry and upset i became.

i had hoped for the best. i seriously believed he could've been the one with whom id spend the rest of my life. i hate to admit my foolish of way thinking. I'm honest, sometimes a bit too honest.

one thing i know is: i will never fall for someone as quickly as i did. i will always take my time to let the relationship unfold naturally. from now on ill get to know a person before giving away my heart. i must begin protecting myself and stop setting myself up for failure.

i'll tell you this: i want to learn how to form healthy, long-lasting relationships. its what i've longed for all my life. the question is: will i ever get it right? maybe one day ill finally learn my lesson. until then, unfortunately, i must admit my embarrassment. i'm definitely a fool in love because i still love him, even after the way he treated me. for shame for shame! its going to take some time for me to get over him.


Annie C.