The Beginning of the End

these next two series of poems were written about a man i loved. the only thing ill reveal about his identity is that he was from india. other than that, he will remain nameless. we had trouble in our relationship, so we broke up. he will remain nameless. we fell in love quickly, much too quickly. he seemed like such a wonderful man- so kind, gentle and loving. the words he spoke to me were none that i ever heard before. his writing was beyond beautiful, such a flowery type of language. imagine the hearing the beauty of poetry in conversation. i had the privilege of listening to these words each time we met. i can only compare his way of expression to shakespeare.

then as time went on, the situation changed for the worse. things started going wrong just as quickly as we fell in love. he started spending less and less time with me. i felt so hurt and abandoned by his insensitivity. over and over i tried to work it out, but he had no interest in resolving our problem. he lost interest in me. i knew something was seriously wrong, but he wouldn't explain or admit it to me. the more this went on, the more angry and upset i became.

i had hoped for the best. i seriously believed he could've been the one with whom id spend the rest of my life. i hate to admit my foolish of way thinking. I'm honest, sometimes a bit too honest.

one thing i know is: i will never fall for someone as quickly as i did. i will always take my time to let the relationship unfold naturally. from now on ill get to know a person before giving away my heart. i must begin protecting myself and stop setting myself up for failure.

i'll tell you this: i want to learn how to form healthy, long-lasting relationships. its what i've longed for all my life. the question is: will i ever get it right? maybe one day ill finally learn my lesson. until then, unfortunately, i must admit my embarrassment. i'm definitely a fool in love because i still love him, even after the way he treated me. for shame for shame! its going to take some time for me to get over him.


Annie C.

Begin the Beguine from the Beginning

Hello world!

I am about to embark on an exciting journey... the adventures of blogging. This is quite a new experience for me- one I've never attempted before. By suggestion of my youngest brother, I was challenged to take upon this task. It is one I have eagerly decided to pursue. As my brother spoke- he told me the many reasons why blogging could be such a good idea. For one, it can be a catalyst to adding focus to my life. In the same conversation, he also explained the benefits and rewards of how blogging could be very helpful in leading me to my destiny.

Here is a list of the most important reasons for me to start and maintain a blog. Number one, to become disciplined and motivated enough to pursue my dreams and aspirations. Two, to inspire others to do the same. Three, to give and receive feedback and encouragement for and from others. Four, to network with artists in the same field as I. Five, to acquaint myself with individuals having similar needs.

Lets return to the original topic of my blog. This is a story of a girl who's has led a strange yet interesting life. Shes experienced most everything imaginable yet all that is unbelievable. Its a blog about the daily happenings of my life from today and beyond. In this public journal I will describe every detail of my thoughts and experiences.

In my minds eye, I see you being intrigued, surprised or even shocked by my circumstances and the way in which they occur. These situations wont be your 'normal' everyday dull news report. Nor shall it be a gossip column. It is about all the raw and gritty happenings of my life. The words you are about to read may move you to tears. Or you may experience laughter, curiosity or introspection. It is subject to interpretation. Some readers will have their own views, coming to their own conclusions regarding my life experiences. This is to be expected since all people see things from different perspectives.

Now what shall I say? Need I say more? I think not. Let us move on to the next phase of our story. I must ask you this one question? Where should I begin? Have you an answer? I believe the beginning is the best place to start! Your reply? By all means yes!

This is where I shall stop for today. I will return to our discussion sooner than you think. By the time you have read this first post, you'll be left wanting more. Try not to let curiosity get the best of your imagination. I have a sneaking suspicion you will be waiting patiently for my next entry. Until then, I will be formulating my ideas of topics on which I shall focus. In a couple of days I expect to have more than enough subject matter to write about. Next time, expect a tickling of your fancy. Are you ready? Prepare yourself. Get ready because here I come!!!


Annie C.