The Guise of Love

Shall I acquire the treasure I so desire?
Shall the treasure so desired be the one acquired?

Inquiries denied
Unfulfilled replies
Disguised lies
As the age-old guise
Of love
Of love
Of love?

With simple answers to complicated questions
Without questionable complexity
Inherent simplicity
Implicitly
Unbeckoned
Indirectly directed
Detected
Unprotected
Apparently rejected

Thus far my reply remains to be seen
I know not how or what will be deemed
It seems
To be
For me
My history
Of romance
Hasn't stood a chance
For again, happenstance has disallowed me
The opportunity
Of advancement to higher levels of reality
Can this be?

Shall I acquire the treasure I so desire?
Shall the treasure so desired be the one acquired?


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

A Pensive Emotional Inventory of Dark Skies

Pensive

Will it end?
Will it ever end
My friend?
The fear, instability
The negativity
Does it ever end?


Emotional Inventory

Here we are in the dark corners, the recesses of my mind
Step back, take a look, what then shall we find?
Mystery
Intrigue, eccentricity
Divine
Shall these remain 'til the end of time?


Dark Skies

A storm rages within
Tinted
Clouds in shades of gray
Loom overhead yet again
I do not welcome them in
Fear is brewing
Instability consumes me
Will it ever end?


Pensive Revisited

When will it end?
Will it ever end my friend?
The chaos, instability
Most of all the negativity
Does it ever end?


Return of the Dark Sky

Upon returning to the dark corners of my mind
Again, I stepped back took
Another look
But what truly did I find?

Was it worth the toll
To regress once more
Was it a mere waste of time?
Futile, without reason or rhyme

Herein lies the answer to this
Mystery
Will it soon be revealed to me?
Has eccentricity
Lead me
To utter misery?

Emotion defined
Equals character divine
Revisited the umpteenth time
Shall I forever find
Misplaced intrigue on the edge of my mind?


Copyright 2003-2008. Annie C.

Drumming on Delmar

Henna on hand
Drum on thigh
Stand high
Eyes to sky
Meditative lullaby
With drums, hands fully extended
Finely blended
Subtle harmonies
Rhythms in twos or threes

Large crowd
Playing aloud
As on cloud
Allowed
Freedom to move to breathe
Easily
Flowing
Measures
Brought together
In any weather
Come rain come shine
At all times
Partly cloudy, sprinkling too
Knowing who
What we do

O how they dance!
See how they move?
To the groove
Ensued
By musical cues
Exuding
Waves imbued
By the dip
Of the hips
Cloaked
In flowing
Tapestries of gold
Colors bold
Behold!
Behold!

Circular motions
Form unbroken
Figure eight begins
Never stops, never ends

Sound
Rebounds
Off wall, comes down
To ground
Flips over turns 'round
Upside-down
Resounds
Abounds
Only found
Here, now
In this town

Bing the bang bang
Bang the bong bong
Bong the tom tom
Play, sing along!
Reach it
Grab it
Hit the drum
Dum diddy
Dum diddy
Dum dum dum!

Come on!
Come on!
Play sing along
Organic songs
Grown
This moment
Finer
Than aged wine
Time after time
Now, sit in, bow out
Bring yourself about
Circular cyclical motions
Back to one
unique pattern, style of play
Fresh brand new today

Sound hits wall,
Comes back, bounces down
Upward bound
From ground
Rebounds
A resounding
Growing
Increasing
Crescendo, full forte!
Strong force
Fills air
Atmosphere
With sound
Abounding
Resounding
SOUND!
SOUND!
SOUND!


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Introspection Revisited

The palpabilty
Of loneliness dwelling within me
Envelops, overtakes me
To places I dare not be

Seeming so
Not coming to know
Not shaking this
Continuous presence
Of nagging loneliness
As I walk this earth
Yearn for a sense of worth
To be, to have, now, today!

Is it here to stay?
It has yet to go away
Loneliness in my heart
Haunts me
Taunts me
Mocking the best
While the rest
Dissolves to the ground
Ceases to fly

The intensity
Of this
Loneliness
Living inside me
Filling, killing me
Shakes me
Breaks me
Takes me
To a space
Id rather not be

Seeming so
Now coming to know
Not shaking this
Continuous presence
Of staggering loneliness
Nagging, badgering
Breaking
Taking me
On an unfounded journey
An unfolding path
Unmolding, unmaking me
Tearing me apart
Into someone I dare not
Do not
Know
Or care to be
Can this be?

Ive an endless
Feeling of loneliness
In me
Longing
To be taken away
Yet it stays
And stays
For days
Sometimes

At times
I find
My mind
Blank, eyes blind
To pain
The same
Feeling I've known
Old
As the year I was born
Permeating
Invading
Overtaking
My soul

'T would be
Absolutely
Lovely
If my lonely
Only
Self would leave me alone today!
Each and everyday
In each and every way
Finally rid me of this pain
Lend me the chance to create a new way
Live a new day
Right now, today!

But then
Again
I ask myself within
When o when
Will it ever go away?
I pray
I say
Away!
Away!

Again
Again
Asking within
When o when
Shall it cease to exist?
Shall I forever experience this?


Copyright 2008. Annie C.