The Guise of Love

Shall I acquire the treasure I so desire?
Shall the treasure so desired be the one acquired?

Inquiries denied
Unfulfilled replies
Disguised lies
As the age-old guise
Of love
Of love
Of love?

With simple answers to complicated questions
Without questionable complexity
Inherent simplicity
Implicitly
Unbeckoned
Indirectly directed
Detected
Unprotected
Apparently rejected

Thus far my reply remains to be seen
I know not how or what will be deemed
It seems
To be
For me
My history
Of romance
Hasn't stood a chance
For again, happenstance has disallowed me
The opportunity
Of advancement to higher levels of reality
Can this be?

Shall I acquire the treasure I so desire?
Shall the treasure so desired be the one acquired?


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

A Pensive Emotional Inventory of Dark Skies

Pensive

Will it end?
Will it ever end
My friend?
The fear, instability
The negativity
Does it ever end?


Emotional Inventory

Here we are in the dark corners, the recesses of my mind
Step back, take a look, what then shall we find?
Mystery
Intrigue, eccentricity
Divine
Shall these remain 'til the end of time?


Dark Skies

A storm rages within
Tinted
Clouds in shades of gray
Loom overhead yet again
I do not welcome them in
Fear is brewing
Instability consumes me
Will it ever end?


Pensive Revisited

When will it end?
Will it ever end my friend?
The chaos, instability
Most of all the negativity
Does it ever end?


Return of the Dark Sky

Upon returning to the dark corners of my mind
Again, I stepped back took
Another look
But what truly did I find?

Was it worth the toll
To regress once more
Was it a mere waste of time?
Futile, without reason or rhyme

Herein lies the answer to this
Mystery
Will it soon be revealed to me?
Has eccentricity
Lead me
To utter misery?

Emotion defined
Equals character divine
Revisited the umpteenth time
Shall I forever find
Misplaced intrigue on the edge of my mind?


Copyright 2003-2008. Annie C.

Drumming on Delmar

Henna on hand
Drum on thigh
Stand high
Eyes to sky
Meditative lullaby
With drums, hands fully extended
Finely blended
Subtle harmonies
Rhythms in twos or threes

Large crowd
Playing aloud
As on cloud
Allowed
Freedom to move to breathe
Easily
Flowing
Measures
Brought together
In any weather
Come rain come shine
At all times
Partly cloudy, sprinkling too
Knowing who
What we do

O how they dance!
See how they move?
To the groove
Ensued
By musical cues
Exuding
Waves imbued
By the dip
Of the hips
Cloaked
In flowing
Tapestries of gold
Colors bold
Behold!
Behold!

Circular motions
Form unbroken
Figure eight begins
Never stops, never ends

Sound
Rebounds
Off wall, comes down
To ground
Flips over turns 'round
Upside-down
Resounds
Abounds
Only found
Here, now
In this town

Bing the bang bang
Bang the bong bong
Bong the tom tom
Play, sing along!
Reach it
Grab it
Hit the drum
Dum diddy
Dum diddy
Dum dum dum!

Come on!
Come on!
Play sing along
Organic songs
Grown
This moment
Finer
Than aged wine
Time after time
Now, sit in, bow out
Bring yourself about
Circular cyclical motions
Back to one
unique pattern, style of play
Fresh brand new today

Sound hits wall,
Comes back, bounces down
Upward bound
From ground
Rebounds
A resounding
Growing
Increasing
Crescendo, full forte!
Strong force
Fills air
Atmosphere
With sound
Abounding
Resounding
SOUND!
SOUND!
SOUND!


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Introspection Revisited

The palpabilty
Of loneliness dwelling within me
Envelops, overtakes me
To places I dare not be

Seeming so
Not coming to know
Not shaking this
Continuous presence
Of nagging loneliness
As I walk this earth
Yearn for a sense of worth
To be, to have, now, today!

Is it here to stay?
It has yet to go away
Loneliness in my heart
Haunts me
Taunts me
Mocking the best
While the rest
Dissolves to the ground
Ceases to fly

The intensity
Of this
Loneliness
Living inside me
Filling, killing me
Shakes me
Breaks me
Takes me
To a space
Id rather not be

Seeming so
Now coming to know
Not shaking this
Continuous presence
Of staggering loneliness
Nagging, badgering
Breaking
Taking me
On an unfounded journey
An unfolding path
Unmolding, unmaking me
Tearing me apart
Into someone I dare not
Do not
Know
Or care to be
Can this be?

Ive an endless
Feeling of loneliness
In me
Longing
To be taken away
Yet it stays
And stays
For days
Sometimes

At times
I find
My mind
Blank, eyes blind
To pain
The same
Feeling I've known
Old
As the year I was born
Permeating
Invading
Overtaking
My soul

'T would be
Absolutely
Lovely
If my lonely
Only
Self would leave me alone today!
Each and everyday
In each and every way
Finally rid me of this pain
Lend me the chance to create a new way
Live a new day
Right now, today!

But then
Again
I ask myself within
When o when
Will it ever go away?
I pray
I say
Away!
Away!

Again
Again
Asking within
When o when
Shall it cease to exist?
Shall I forever experience this?


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Commentary on movie musical 'Showboat'

Life imitated
Art.
Which was imitating
Life.

Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Return of the Starry Night

Was it a starry night?
Did the moon shine on, burn bright?
Iridescence
Metallic silver essence
Glows
Slows...
Knows
This present darkness
At any moment
May cease to exist
For it can not co-exist
With
The dawn of the morn
Fast approaching as the sun


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

TWO SEPARATE POEMS

Live and Let Live

Accept me as I am
Listen and understand
Making no demands
Taking no commands
Nor depicting
Didactic dictating
Of outdated modes
Conduct codes
Thoughts
Taught
In days of old


LISTEN

Have you heard- heard
Random words- words
SPOKEN
SPOken
Spoken...
Echoing the sound- sound
Of the crowd- crowd
Speaking
Louder
LOuder
LOUDer
LOUDER...
Whispered hush breathed
Public bus leaves
Stops.
For the hustle
And bustle
Beyond
The dawn
At daybreak


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Starry Night

Tonight stars burn bright
Moon shines iridescent lights
Of blue, gray and silver until the dawn
Shows itself morning by morn
Night transforms
To light
Right
At the perfect hour of day


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Five Unrelated Poems

Broken

My heart has been broken
Into millions of tiny pieces
Now only fragments
Of my imagination remain, linger on
Since you did your dirty deed

Lovely

i love. to love. be loved.
to have loved. give love.
receive love. know love.
feel loved. i love love.

Naivete

How could I be dumb
And stupid enough to trust
A man such as he?

Miss Walker

must move hips.
dip down.
heels to ground.
dont pound.
circle around.
bounce back.
to center.
upward bound.

Advert

The classic fit
Of jeans that sit
On hips
That slip
On with just one grip


Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Taboo?

Nobody dare discuss its presence
No one's willing to admit it's existence
Is it to be shunned
As sex is to a nun
Deviated from conversation
Racism
As soon as mentioned
It causes tension
Turns into dissension
Ugly stereotypical words
Form unacceptable racial slurs
Bringing shame to your name
As well as every person of color
For a White man's historical claim to fame
Is a vile disgusting word I dare not name
Insulting the very core of my being
Wiping away all respect expected
Over past decades equality was of the essence
Given no fighting chance
Never seeing me for who I am
A wonderful woman of African descent



Copyright 2008. Annie C.

Are you There?

where are you?
i love you
i miss you
i need you
i want you here with me
i love you
cant you see
i ache and yearn for you
i miss you
want to kiss you

where are you?
i love you
im cryin
im dyin
without you here
im pining
im finding it hard
to find the rhyme without reason
to understand the meaning of this

where are you?
i miss you
i love you
i want to hold you
and kiss you
'cause i miss you
im cryin and dyin
to see you
feel you
touch you
make love to you
say so much to you
'cause i love you
and want you so much
i cant ever let you go
once again did you know that i miss you?

i want to talk to you
share with you
sing to you
express my every though with you
know you
give my love attention and devotion to you
doing everything with you
im so enamored with you
ill never leave you
ill always be with you
now until the end of time
can we find the time
to say what we meant to say today
in every way
please stay
dont go
ill never let you go
do you know that i love you so?
i really love you more than youll ever know

are you real?
are you there?
can we please make time to share our every care
its so hard to bear not having you there
even so i know you care

where are you?
im too far from you
i want to be there with you
to squeeze you and tease you
but most of all to please you
take me
indulge me
squeeze me
tease me
drown me
drench me
fill me
spill into me
pinch me can it be what it seems to be?
that you you honestly truly love and care for me?

undress me
caress me
tenderly touch me
feel me
show me
just how much you love me
until the dawn keep me safe
and wrap your warm arms around me
i cant believe you found me
kiss me
do what you will with me
but most of all what id like to ask
is do you really miss me?


copyright 2008. annie c.

It is Written

Written on the wall words describing all
Words describing all written on the wall
The writing on the wall says it all
Once written they cannot be hidden
In the sentence of forgetfulness
Let us remember the place it started
From the beginning until the end
For now it shall never be hidden
It shall forever remain the same
Words forbidden to change
Become stale with need to rearrange
To new forms of remembrance
Transforming blank pages into
Ones carrying ink-blotted images
Written on these walls words describing all
Words describing all written on these walls

Copyright 2008. Annie C.